I've decided to participate in a new blog meme on Fridays called (you guessed it from the title and the photo!) 5 Minute Friday hosted by Gypsy Mama. The gist is you are given a prompt and you write for 5 minutes about that prompt.
I love this idea. I sometimes get caught up in posting this craft project, sharing that recipe, or showing off another photo of my Noah that I forget to do just what I created this blog for in the first place and that is write. Its something I love to do and find very therapeutic. So hopefully these 5 Minute Friday prompts will help me get back to that and it'll be something I'm doing more regularly without prompts.
Onto this week’s prompt - "Deep Breath"
As a wife, a mother, a woman, and heck just a human being there are so many moments I need to just stop and take a breath but there is no other situation I probably need to do this more than when dealing with Noah’s special needs, particularly one of his autistic meltdowns, which by the way have gotten fewer and further between lately!
In the midst of one of Noah's massive meltdowns, I always find my temperature rising. I feel my blood pressure increasing. I want to scream. Heck sometimes, I want to just join in the meltdown with him but that’s not what a Mother does and that wouldn’t help the situation. So, I do the only thing I can do and that’s take a deep breath and try and get us through to the other side.
I shut out the screaming for a minute and go inside my mind to an inner bubble. I close my eyes and I take a deep breath - the deepest breath possible. I inhale deeply then exhale slowly all the while I'm praying, asking God to grant me the strength to make it through this meltdown. I remind myself that I was made for this. One more deep breath and I open my eyes.
I feel stronger. I can deal with this again. I calmly and softly talk to Noah and try and diffuse the situation and calm him down. I wish he could just take a deep breath and meditate for a second.
It doesn't always work. It's not always that easy but a deep breath and a quick prayer give me strength to keep trudging on and make it through the situation.