I had an "ah ha" moment earlier in the week. Once again, bedtime has become a huge battle for Noah and I. Once he finally gives in, I creep downstairs quietly, enjoy some tea, and try to decompress as I watch something I had DVRed earlier in the week. So, I was watching the girls night of American Idol. Lacey Brown was about to sing and they were running a little pre-recorded piece where she was talking about what she does before she sings and she said that she tells herself "I was made for this." She said her Mom has always told her, "You were made for this."
It just sorta clicked then and there. I was made for this. No, being the Mom of a child with special needs isn't easy and it's not fun, but I really do think it was in His plan. He made me for this life, my life. He made me for this situation. He made me for Noah.
Immediately two verses were brought to mind, one of which is a long time favorite.
"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful."
And the second verse brought to mind, one of my all time favorites:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
~ Jeremiah 29:11
~ Jeremiah 29:11
So, while I might not be loving this upcoming chapter of my life, for some reason it's in His plans. He made me for this, he knows I will make it through it and be stronger on the other side. With Him I can do this. I can fulfill His plans because I was made for this.
Edited to Add: Since writing this post, I have fully embraced "You were Made for This" as my mantra and even took it on as a photography project taking different photos in different settings with my mantra. Click here to see all the photos thus far.